School Parties

I Be the Mother

Happy Birthday to my Baby

The people in this room. Oh my god, I love them.

The Monster Mash

10 on 2sday

10. Let me just say this for myself . . . WTF??? I feel like I've been trying to nail jello to a tree lately.

9. Thank you for the awesome birthday party for Grace. I am always so amazed at the good spirit and fun you all put into the event. It's a great tradition! It's funny, because before three years ago, I'd never even been to a Halloween party. Now, I can't imagine this time of year without it. That little girl has been amazing this year. She never ceases to amaze me with her maturity and compassion. So I'm so thankful you guys put in such a great effort to make her special. She needs it. She deserves it.

8. I tear up just thinking how she'll be with Shane on her birthday. I just hate it. Ten years ago I felt like we had just become a family. Now, I'm mourning the loss of that feeling. But, I am also rejoicing in the fact that the definition has become redefined. There are certainly things that are horrible. But the strength those little girls have given me has truly changed who I thought I was. We are doing this. We are doing this well. And I like who I am now a lot of better than who I thought I was just last year. Because at least now, I'm real.

7. I just got a text from Shane two seconds ago. It said, "Who was I to you?" Oh, god. Why does he do this? It's like living in a form of hell. Do I tell him he was everything? That I invested my whole life into that life with him? I know who he was then to me, but I don't even know who is today. I don't even recognize him. So I have to question who I ever thought he was.

6. I'm seeing a theme. I'm moving off this crap now.

5. I love Samuri on Tuesday nights.

4. Jamie, a friend of Chris's came over and fixed my sidewalks last night. I'd gotten a letter from the city that I had to fill in some cracks. I'm so thankful for even the friends of friends who do things like that.

3. When Dancing with the Stars comes on, my living room turns into a dance floor. You should see the lifts. And the moves. Love that. My kids are so full of happiness.

2. I need to upload pictures from the party. I hope I can swing that. If not today, tomorrow.

1. I love rain. It sounded so wonderful hitting my window this morning. So cozy. I have an entire playlist devoted to rain songs on my iTunes. That's love.

Sister Night . . . Without Joni . . .But for a Cause

Josie with the Camera

Josie took these of Jennie when we were playing around upstairs in my room. Josie is really good, or Jennie is really beautiful.

WTH?

It was still cold when I found it.

The girls had no idea how it got there. I asked. So watch your toothpaste drawers. Strange shit is happening.

10 on 2sday

10. Well, Bitch, it's Tuesday. No post dating. No monkey business. Just straight up, random crap.

9. My favorite text so far today . . . "custody is over. you should fuck with him." Hell, who am I kidding? This has staying power. It will be my favorite text for the whole week. Unless The Situation texts me back. I'm not sure it was his real number, though, since it was posted on his fan page and all. But I'm hopeful.

8. Grace left me a list of songs on the counter that she wants me to download. Whom among us doesn't just love that she does this?

7. Jesus. I've screwed up the numbering on this like three times so far. I've created a complicated system. Anyway, I took Josie and Jennie in for a checkup and about six thousand shots. Five each. Holy crapers. They, of course, took it like champs.

1. The twins are writing their own names. Silence while I bawl. When the cripes did they get so big?

6. Faith threw up in his car five times. Poor little girl. Deserving bastard.

3. Mom had the brilliant idea of bringing the black and white twins prints back from Billy's and hang them in my room. I did. They look fantastic. It makes me happy.

5. A G6 is a gulfstream jet. I googled it. It cost 58 million and flies at the rate of 572 mph. I get it now. I too feel fly like a G6.


Now I’m feelin so fly like a G6
Like a G6, Like a G6
Now I’m feelin so fly like a G6

2. All my outfits for the past month have involved the same pair of pants and the same fantastic boots. And I'm happy about that.

4. I put some of my salmon on the grill the other night. I started the grill all by myself. Small freaking victories. Go team Clinton!

Big Little Girls

I realize you can't really see the charts, but they are so funny. At their first appointment at 5 days old Jennie weighed 5 lbs, and then at 12 days dropped back to 4lbs 6 oz. Josie was 4 lbs 3oz at 5 days, and weighed 4lbs even at 12 days. One Oct. 13, Josie was a pound bigger than Jennie at 27 lbs. Who can believe these are the same babies? Who can believe I looked so bad? Wow.

The Sister Picture

Thank you Jessica for sending this to me electronically. I converted it to B/W, and I'm going to print it off for my room.

I'm insanely curious . . . are there other pictures of us? Just the four of us?

I love this picture. It reminds me of my own babies.

I Pray for You

The only thing I can say here is that it was going so well.

Then I decided that maybe we do need to pray for them. I made my prayers a little more specific, though. I added sentiments about flower pots.

10 on 2sday

So I'm post-dating this by a day. F-it. I can do that crap.

10. Thanks to Mark, and my obvious non-cleverness, my Halloween costume idea has been shot all to hell. I've got to step up my game.

9. Faith lost yet another tooth. I stumbled out to the car in the middle of night, trying to find some dollar bills. In the morning, she said, "Man. How many teeth do I have to lose before I get a barbie doll?" The tooth fairy sucks. I know this for a fact.

8. So I brilliantly thought about scanning the girls' artwork into the copier and sending myself a PDF so I can post it to the blog. I'm pretty proud of myself for that. It came to me when I reviewed the "punking" kid Grace drew for guidance class. She said they had to draw a picture of what they thought a bully might look like. Apparently, Grace is nervous about a goth looking, sexually confused boy named Zach. When I questioned her about the word "punking" she said she'd meant to write punching, but punking worked, too. She said if the bully was black, she could have used the word "hooding." As in he is seen in the hood. I thought that made a lot of sense.

7. Faith's drawing is of her family, she said. I don't know why, but it about made me cry. Her visual definition may have changed a little, but her details are dead on. It's a keeper.

6. I thought Josie and Jennie's trip to the pumpkin patch was tomorrow. I've been building them for it all week. I screwed up. It is next week. I wanted to hurt myself for being so dumb.

5. I ate with Jessie and Eddie at Samuri last night. Oh my god was it good.

4. New couches = happiness.

3. Pictures with built in clocks = happiness.

2. I have to go pick the babies up for their 3 year well baby exam and shots. I don't know how I am going to do this by myself.

1. I heard a new Tim McGraw song this morning - It felt good on my lips - awesome, awesome song.

Some Pretty Thoughts

My Favorite Moment Saturday

Farming in your leotard . . . priceless.

Josie and Jennie's First Hair Cut. Ever.

Soybean Harvest 2010

I simply adore harvest. I love everything about it. It just makes me feel so happy.